Friday, November 21, 2008

I made it...

... I am now back home with Wifey. I had a great trip and got to meet a lot of really good business contacts.

I've got more trips lined up before the year is over, but no more overnight trips - just really long days, but that's fine. :o)

Oh, and the solution [the reason why I felt I could sleep without Wifey] was that after several plane and train rides and many meetings (plus half a bottle of nice red wine during a dinner with colleagues), I was completely beat and could barely stay awake. ;o)

But the REAL help was the fact that my "sleeping shirt" for the night, was same one that Wifey had slept in the previous night, and also, I had a T-shirt of hers with me, that she had worn a few nights (the one she'd been "fragranizing" for me, LOL). This "scent shirt" I had right next to my heart all night. I actually folded it togther and put it under my night shirt, and just hugged it ALL night. I woke up in exactly the same position I had fallen asleep... and Wifey and I texted each other both right before going to sleep and as soon as we woke up.

Anyway, now we're just going to enjoy the weekend... And [especially] each other! :oP

Feeling goooood,
- GayGirl

Friday, November 14, 2008

I will... But I really can't

To sleep a night without my Wifey, is something I've always said I wouldn't do... Actually, it's something we've always said WE wouldn't do. And still, that's what I'll do for one night next week.

I can't... I mean I REALLY don't want to, but I will. It's a business trip and 36 hours are jam-packed with more meetings than I can count, and in two different countries. So three plane rides, a few train and cab rides, different time zones and one night in a hotel later, I'll be back.
Wifey is okay with it... I can't really say that I am, but I'll still do it.

However, I'll only be able to sleep because I'm completely exhausted, which I will no doubt be. Dreaming of Wifey... and wearing a shirt that she's "fragranizing" for me a few days before I leave. ;o)

So in love... and so very, very torn!
- GayGirl

Saturday, November 8, 2008

Feeling numb

I am truly amazed that Obama actually made it, and so very happy that he did - even if I still wish it had been Hillary, but I've come to terms with that. LOL, well, maybe not quite, but I AM happy with the result and think it's amazing in so many ways.

However, everything - all the progress and happiness I felt at first -- when it was clear that Obama had won -- was extremely diminished by the result of Prop. 8.

I don't even live in California, but where I do live we "only" have domestic partnership, so I understand the significance and possible repercussions of this result. I guess that's why I've been going through the same thing. I sat at work and constantly hit the refresh button hoping and wishing that the result would suddenly start going in the opposite direction... But it never happened. Meanwhile everyone around me we SO excited about Obama winning, but I simply felt robbed of the "amazing and historic progress" that everyone was thrilled about.
Probably because I know that Wifey and I (yes, I will forever call her “wife” even if we don’t have “marriage”) would’ve gotten married over the summer, if we lived in CA.

However, when I saw pictures and footage from the impromptu march, I realized that this is far from over. But I'm still heartbroken by the result.

I guess I just can't understand why my ability to get married affects anybody else. I mean, I could marry and divorce a new murderer, rapist, child abuser, WHATEVER, every year. Well, as long as that person is a man. But to marry the person I love, I need to have permission from the majority? Well then, if you get to decide who I can marry, shouldn’t I have a say in who you can marry as well?

Actually, at first I thought Prop. 8 was fine, cause I really couldn’t imagine that it would be passed. I guess I underestimated how much people enjoy having power over other people’s lives. I mean, you can watch me walking down the street with a girl one day, and if we get married that very night and you see us again the next day, you would STILL just see two girls walking down the street. It changes absolutely nothing in your life, but you still want to exercise your power when you have the ability.

Feeling sad and confused,
- GG

P.S. Sorry about the lack of posts - I've just been very busy and very umm, well, numb after the election. I'm back now though. ;o)